piranakisses

"A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, He said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said.... You're not pretty you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die... "

I want that...who wouldn't?

Does my heart not break when it is alone? Does it not skip a beat if I find the one? Does it not explode when it meets the perfect match? Does it not speak when I get attached? Does it not float when in love? Does it not melt when in lust?

yeah, my heart envys what it cannot have, I need to find the one. now damn it!

Black and white, light and dark, good and bad, etc. There is no in between, you're either on one side or the other. If you try to stand between them you'll get caught in the cross fire with no mercy for your soul.

I created this journal for more than the traditional diary of collected thoughts on ones life. Keeping a piece of me here is a reminder of what I shouldn't indulge, so here is the first and last entry having anything to do specifically with me.

One can determine how they will feel throughout the day, your "attitude" which can influence all who are around you. I never really practice what I preach but I try to recognize my wisedom and then the down fall of my own intelligence that should follow what advice is given, but doesn't. Everyday I some how justify how I feel, how I react. But in my enviorment all I want is balance. So I may be a bit morbid and a tad to critical but in my mind I think everyone is. Like I lack something I can possibly gain by others seeing my point of view.
I can't decide how certain issuses make me feel, all of it depends on my upbringing, experiences, and beliefs. Which isn't good or bad. It's like a war inside of me, who I am and who I want to be. That's why there I stand, between two sides, they are neutral to me 'til I analyze and find my conclusion.
So yes this is personal and also public. Any remarks or opinions on here are my right as an American, so don't bother trying to censor whatever that is to be written.